Progress Report in November, 2022

In a competition at Code4rena, I finally won a prize, and it was a huge sum of money for me.

The past year was really torturous, and I fell ill more times than in my entire life before. I console myself by saying that I’m getting older and it’s time to experience some things. This year, the word that appeared most in my journal was “freedom,” which manifested as extreme dissatisfaction with my current situation and my boss, and the desire to escape from reality. The other day, when I was writing in my journal, I felt like I was about to give up on life.

A new year is coming, will it be a new beginning? Maybe not. I’ve been living like this for many years, and I’ll continue to do so in the future. But I’m sure that the new year will be the endpoint of some things. It stops at a certain point in the past, and the unbearable memories will slowly dissipate over time, and people will learn to shake off the dust and mud and forget.

On this last day of the year, I finally got some release and felt a deep cry from the bottom of my heart…

This year, I also did everything I wanted to do, bought a small flat, changed my blog, and achieved good results in competitions. I did something.

But there are still many things I haven’t done.

At this moment, I’m still at a loss, mediocre, and not exciting.

The number of movies I want to watch on Douban is almost 1,000, and the number of books I want to read is 400.

I know that this world is colorful and beautiful, and I pass by it every day, but I don’t have time to appreciate it every day.

I know that there is a lazy and free me deep in my heart, but he is imprisoned and trapped.

I remember he wanted to live a life without surrendering, and the purpose of my current existence is to bring him to life someday.

I have never embraced the coming year with such anticipation. I believe next year will be better.